Decisions.....

I am finding that life's decisions continue to get harder as I get older. The decisions are no longer those decisions that an adult could make in a few seconds but because I was young were much more important to me and instead took longer. The majority of life's decisions right now seem as if they could have a profound impact on my future life. This sometimes instills in me a feeling of intense fear. The power that I have over my life has recently seemed to dramatically increase. Although I the power has always been there, it has been harder to recognize in the past. In some ways it seemed much easier when someone else seemed to hold the strings of my life.

On the other hand, the thought of independence, as it does to many people, is enrapturing to me. Each of these feelings can be so overpowering that I am afraid at many times to make a wrong decision because of the intensity of them. To add to the mix, the confusion of these two conflicting feelings in my mind is sometimes overwhelming. And the harder the decision the more these two perspectives seem to be at war.

Now I am not trying to imply that decision are always unwelcome. Many decisions have very positive effects on the lives of us and those around us. Making these decisions to the best of our ability is our responsibility.
As to the decisions I feel forced to make at this time, I believe future reading of my blog will provide light on my life's decisions.